| | Current Music: | Sing the Sorrow-AFI | | Subject: | quiz thingy | | Time: | 12:53 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/envious.gif) envious |
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• justin is the one that you love.
• scott is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about eden.
• carlos is the one who knows you very well.
• dad is your lucky star.
• this celluloid dream is the song that matches with justin.
• lovers end is the song for scott.
• oh serena is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and passanger is the song telling you how you feel about life
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| | Current Music: | none | | Time: | 01:20 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/sad.gif) restless |
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| | I just keep thinking of all the fun we had last night. I'm going to miss them so much! And i've been trying so hard not to think about it this whole week because it's going to make me cry. So now i can't sleep because i keep thinking that in just a few days they're going to leave, just like that, and i may never see them again. I really hope Eden returns, i don't know what i'm going to do without her. I've become so dependant of her, it's weird, i've never attached myself to someone like this. Ohh, i'm supposed to save my tears until Wednesday, but i don't know if i'll be able to hold on. I really hope they stay, that maybe something's going to happen, and they'll have to stay. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | Headache | | Time: | 01:04 am | | Current Mood: | sad |
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| | I can't wait until tommorrow, or later today. Being by myself makes me think too much. And now i've come to the conclusion that i've failed everyone. I don't know, i just wish i could make people's pain go away, and make everything okay. I remember when i was younger, i would lay on my bed at night and make a world up. It wasn't even a world. First, i made a big clear bubble, then i put grass in it, and hills and trees. Then i made a big mansion, with animals, cuddly ones, no dangerous ones, except tamed tigers, because i like tigers. Then i would choose people to put in. I would take my brothers first, then my parents, then my grandma, my favorite aunts and uncles and cousins, and so on. Then i would be the last one to come in, to make everything secure, make sure none of the mean people came in. Then i would just picture us having picnics under the trees and just laying around doing nothing, i would always imagine my brothers playing video games, and i would just lay on the grass and watch the clouds, and make sure that everyone was okay. Lol, yeah, that was me. I'm so weird...But how i wish i could really do that.... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | none :( | | Time: | 12:53 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/hot.gif) hot |
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| I got this from Goth_Faery :D
Post your completely honest opinion of me as a comment to this entry.
Post anonymously if you prefer (YOU PUSSY!), and don't feel afraid to say whatever.
I want you to be brutally and completely honest.
Write as much or as little as you want, but if you're reading this, I want you to comment.
Once you're done, put this in your own journal. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Inner Universe | | Subject: | Kitty Whiskers | | Time: | 02:05 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/scared.gif) anxious |
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| Going to VA tomorrow!! I dunno what to do with my cat though...nobody wants to take care of her. Well, i'm going to do what my friend does, i'm being lazy.
Imagine being in the clouds, not exactly a clear day, but theres no gray clouds around. Everything feels fresh, and everywhere you look, it's just clouds, sky, empty space. Now you take flight from the cloud your standing on, and you just fly through the sky, not knowing what's up ahead. But it's just sky, just emptiness, and you get scared, what if you never get out? What if your whole life will be spent flying from cloud to cloud hoping to find something, someone, but you never do? It's horrible, being alone in such a big place. Not knowing what's up ahead, or what's going to happen to you. But your heart keeps beating fast, because you feel something coming. That's how i feel right now, i've had that feeling for a while, and it scares me...I don't know what's going to happen to me, i don't know what to do...I want to change my life, but i'm too scared i'll change it for the worst. I shouldn't be so scared though, i know i have people that love me and will always be here for me right? Then, i should take chances"make mistakes" lol, Magic School Bus...i miss that show...I'm just being a big wussy, so what if something goes wrong? There's always ways to make it right, and if there isnt...well theres always suicide...Good night! | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Distillers | | Subject: | Poptarts | | Time: | 11:35 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/surprised.gif) awake |
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| | Poptarts are good. Bad but good. You know, i hadn't realized earlier that meat is shoved right at my face. I'm serious, these weeks, i've been watching what i eat, and tried to stay away from meat, but it's so freaking hard! Like it's cheaper than some vegetarian foods, and everything has meat!! I was doing a good job, until this weekend. My dad invited us to chinese, and i had chicken. Oh and then i ate a chicken sandwich. That's it though, i think...cuz theres no food in this place, so i've been living off of fig bars, drinks and a poptart. Lol, it's good. Christmas shopping i will go! It's kinda late, i know. I don't even know if i have enough money. Oh well. bye bye. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| That's KOrn...I love Korn, no matter what some people say, they were the best...Helped me go through some tough times...well their music did. I'm going back to Virginia!! Lol, yay! This time my brother is coming with me. I don't even know for how long, i mean, i know the dates, but i don't know how long it will last and i just don't feel like looking at a calendar. Maybe it will snow! That would be awesome, well it would, but i don't have coat. The warmest thing i have right now is my awesome black hooded sweater i just got. Yeah, going back to VA, i'm gonna miss work, i'll probably get fired. Oh well, i already made a deal with..uh...no one? If i get fired, or leave or whatever, i'm getting my lip pierced. :D No matter what anyone says, (aka my parents). I've also decided that i do want to attend college. I've just been thinking about it, and it's the best thing i can do, i don't want to be stuck in Toys R Us for the rest of my life, so i'm getting that damn degree! Even though i don't know how i'll get the money, my parents already made it clear that they won't be able to help me. OH well, i'll find a way...On a slightly different note "I'll suck/eat your dick/clit for $15, just call me at: well IM me :D"
Good Night. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Deep Cover-Snoop Dogg and Dr. Dre | | Subject: | My Eyes Are Bleeding!! | | Time: | 02:39 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/sleepy.gif) sleepy |
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| No, they just hurt from lack of sleep, even though i slept all morning...it's just not enough.
My friend Eden came over last night and she spent the night. She hasn't done that since the summer. I miss it. Last night was awesome *^_^* we actually sung!! Yay! We listened to Evanescence, she sings so pretty, Eden, lol, she does. I didn't know she could sound like that, because most of the time, she's just playing around, but last night was awesome. She's such a singer. I'm proud of her, she's really evolving as an artist. That's good, :D
But now it sucks, because i have to go to work in like 2 hours. Noo!! I'm working until midnight, and then tomorrow i have to be there at 8 a.m. That's really gonna suck. I hate work, well that place, most of the time i'm just wondering around, hiding from my manager, because there's nothing to do. I wouldn't mind it if there was always something to do, but there isn't. It's just bloody boring! Oh well...Oh, my brother just got San Andreas! Lol, it doesnt mean much to me, but he's been waiting to get that game since the summer. Oh my stomach hurts...Okay, that's it, good bye. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Yeah Yeah Yeahs | | Time: | 11:10 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/dirty.gif) dirty |
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| Yay!! I think my brother, my friend and I are going to start a band. Yayness! That's awesome, she's coming over tomorrow so we can practice or something, my brother's doing guitars, she's on bass and i'm vocals(Even though i can't sing for crap). I hope they take it a little serious, well i know my brother will. Now we just need a drummer and lead guitarist, because, my brother's not the best. Staying home for work for two days rules, but i have to go back tomorrow...that sucks. And it sucks more now, because my car is broke. I was going to Best Buy today to use this five dollar gift certificate, and i was going down a bridge, when in the middle of the road, it turns off! There was so much traffic! It was so scary, and it wouldn't turn back on, luckily we were going down a hill, so i just pushed the gas until we made it to a gas station at the end of the bridge. I called my dad, and he doesn't know what's wrong with it. Damn, i hate that car, i was so excited, because it's my first car, but, damn, that was some scary shit. So we left it in the parking lot, because it never turned back on. So, tomorrow, i don't know, i guess my dad and my uncle are going to go check what's wrong with it. This sucks, my apartment, and my car are all broke. This place is infested with roaches, and my car sucks, i told my dad that we have to move. He wants to too, because the landowners are real bitches to him...Fuck them!! They returned his check just because he was a dollar or two below the actual rent, goddamn i hate these people!!! I hate this fucking city!!!
OKay, i'm good...Good night. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Hehe, something very funny happened yesterday...Okay, i was trying to make some platanos, cuz they are so damn good, well anyways, I hadn't even started putting them on the pan. The stove was on and the pan was on it, i wasn't looking at it because i was talking to my brother. All of a sudden, i feel this heat coming from behind me, but i ignored it, even though i knew what it was, i just kept talking, so then my brother's like "hey, the kitchen's on fire" So i turn around, and there's a huge flame on the stove...So i start freaking out, and my brother gets up and i look for the fire extinguisher, and he couldn't open the damn thing, he couldn't pull on the little thingy...It was funny, so then i threw water on the flame, it was scary. The house was full of black smoke. It looked cool though, because all the black smoke had gathered in a corner, it was awesome. But we had to open the windows and the doors, and his friends were over, and they kept insulting my cooking. But it wasn't my cooking, because i hadn't started cooking...And that, ladies and gentlemen, is my eventful weekend. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| I don't know, i'm bored...i should start doing something...I suck, i can't do something without a plan, i wish i was more random...So, i'll post some lyrics...
"Poetic Tragedy"
the cup is not half empty as pessimists say
as far as he's sees nothings left in the cup
a whole cup full of nothing for him to induldge
since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up
a singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
he gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
so he voyages in circles
succeeds getting nowhere
and submits to the substance
that first got him there
than in violent, frustration he cries out to God or just no one
is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
he feels alone
his heart in his hand
he's alone
he feels alone
I feel....
then on that last day he breaks
and he stood tall
and he yelled... and he takes his life
~The Used~ | | comments: Leave a comment |
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You're dark and mysterious, poetic, and a hopeless
romantic. The dark side of life has always been
prevalent. You dodge normal people because
their ignorance of the evil being done around
them. You are a tortured soul who trusts no
one. You're everything the freaks wish they
were.
You're a real goth.
Are you a goth or a mansonite?
brought to you by Quizilla
Thanks to Goth_Faery | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Los Enanitos Verdes | | Subject: | Yawn.. | | Time: | 11:17 pm | | Current Mood: | bored |
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| | I am bored, but at least i have my cat to play with...been sick kinda so i left work early today, i feel guilty though, because i feel fine now...i'm thinking of going vegetarian, all i have to do is give up chicken, cuz i don't eat pork or beef...just chicken...i won't even try vegan yet, i'm not that careful. Oh yeah, this song rocks!(click)Los Enanitos Verdes-Lamento Boliviano:D it rocks, it's an old song/band, but it sounds cool. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | none | | Subject: | Quiz thingy! | | Time: | 03:22 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/angry.gif) cynical |
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| I got if from goth_faery :D
Call me: Karla
AGE: 18
Height: 5'5
Hair Color: faded dark blue
Where I'm at?: living room
Fear(s): spiders, public humiliation...i have a whole bunch..oh clowns!!
SECTION 2//HAVE YOU EVER??
Peed in your pants? yeah, when i was little
Cheated on someone? naah
Fallen off the bed? haha, yeah, many a time
Fallen for a relative? no
Failed a grade? nope
Broke someone's heart? i don't think so
Had your heart broken? yeah
Had a dream come true? no, i don't think so...
Done something you regret? all the time
Cheated on a test? nah
Broken a body part? never
SECTION 3// CURRENTLY
Wearing: lame work clothes, i should get dressed
Eating: Nothing
Reading: a book?
Watching: My brother and his friend
Craving: sleep or something i dunno...
Listening: my brother whine
Should really: SECTION 4//DO YOU...
Brush your teeth? yup
Like anyone? not at the moment
Drive? yeah, but i havent for the whole weekend!!
Love GOD? there is no god!
SECTION 8// FAVORITE...
Store: i dunno..
Relative: Carlos
Sport: haha!!!
Icecream Flavor: mint chocolate chip
Fruit: watermelon
Candy: almond joy
Car: i dunno...some cool ass muscle car?
Magazine: i don't have one...AP?
Day of the week: Friday
Color: oh soo many!! purple, burgandy, green, hot pink and black!
Name for a girl: Alexia
Name for a boy: Alexander
SECTION 9// DO YOU...
+Like to give hugs? Yes!
+Like to walk in the rain? oh yeah, it's so much fun!
+Sleep with or without clothes on? depends on my mood, but usually with.
+Prefer black or blue pens? black
+Dress up for halloween? I like it, but i don't do it anymore
+Have a job? Yes
+Sleep on your side, tummy or back? tummy
+Want to marry? not right now
+Have a goldfish? i used to, but it died in a day
+Ever had the falling dream? yeah, and the tripping dream
+Have stuffed animals? oh man, i used to have a whole bunch, but i gave them away...need to act more grown up...plus they scared me | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | AFI | | Time: | 08:56 pm | | Current Mood: | bored |
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| | Saturday at last!!! Yay!! Not really, i'm such a loser, i'm home alone on a saturday night....serves me well. OH well, i'm tired anyways. Had to work today, at least i don't have to work tomorrow. Yayness! I dunno, i feel like dressing up and being stupid, but i'm all by myself, and my buddie's out with her boyfriend, and i don't know about everyone else. This sucks...i'm bored... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | I had the strangest dream this morning. I was in Virginia and my mom and her boyfriend were taking me to the airport. Then i was in the airport and my mom's boyfriend was putting my bag on the check thingy, then i saw my ex best friends, Mark and Mary, well it was a combination of Mary and my best friend Eden and my other ex best friend Erica(they're my ex bffs because i moved and i haven't seen them in over two years). So they took me some place and i went to look for Mary at her house, and we hung out and it was weird. Then Mark dissapeared and we were at the airport again, and i was worried that my flight might leave me, but i didn't want to go, i didn't want to leave my mom behind because i miss her. I didn't want to leave my friends behind...and it was all like a brownish gray, all sad looking. Then i went to sit with Mark and Mary on some track. And she sat there eating ice cream, and i felt like i loved her so much i didn't want to leave her. Then they started playing all these songs we used to listen, and Mark appeared and i wanted to laugh and remind him that he used to sing that song to me. But i was ashamed. Then he went to sit on the track opposite of me and Mary, and he just looked at us all sad. Well, i think me and Mary did something, because i was feeling this overwelming love for her, and she kept looking down at me. It was nothing strange, we just started kissing and i don't know. It was all okay. Until the tracks started moving, and Mark's was going the opposite way of ours. There were all these people sitting next to us. They were all the people i went to school in VA with. Well we saw Mark go the opposite direction, but we didn't say nothing, we just watched and felt really bad. He just kept looking at us, all sad. Now it was just me and Mary, but i'm not sure if it was my old buddy Mary or my new buddy Eden. WEll, after that i think i saw Mark change tracks, but he never appeared. I thought he probably just started talking to one of our other friends. Me and Eden kept doing our love thing. But it was all sad. And just now i was listening to Evanescence and that one song came up "Play ground school bell rings again, rain clouds come to play again," well that one song, and i just remembered the dream and i started crying. I'm still kinda. But i don't know why. Maybe something happened to Mark, or Mary, or Erica, or even Eden!!! I don't know...this is too weird. OOH! or my mom!! Damn i should have called her. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I have a job now. It's a little boring, but that's life eh? Yup, i work at Toys R Us, hooray! At least i get to work with toys, but not really, i work in the apparel section of it. It's okay i guess, but, i really don't know what to do, i mean, i guess i'm supposed to look around to see that everything is in its place, and help customers, but i don't like helping people because i don't know where things are or what we have. But whatever, work is work. And tomorrow is my day off. OH yeah, so i'll be attending a community college in January, i decided to change my major thingy to Graphic Design, since i'm getting better at fixing my journal's layout(not this one), so yeah. I'm not sure that i want to go to college, but, yeah i have to. I have nothing to fall on if i don't. Except music, i really really really want to consider music as one of my options. I want to start a band, but i don't know anyone that's talented. I was gonna do guitar and my friend bass, but i suck at guitar, i don't have the patience or the agility, so yeah, and then my friend just got a bass. But yeah, i'm still working on that, I think my voice would be a whole lot better if i practice more. But i don't anyone that's in that business. Except my brother, he's in the process of becoming a serious guitar player, he has a band. Yeah, i'm jelous, he took my idea. So yeah, i want to be a musician!!!! I wanted to move to Cali too and live my own different life...there seems to be a stronger punk scene in California then in FL, but i guess i wouldn't know, i don't go out much, because everyone's always at my back....okay, this is becoming too long sorry. Bye Bye... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | AFI, Jimmy Eat World and My Chemical Romance | | Subject: | Blah! | | Time: | 03:32 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/goth_girl/artistic.gif) artistic |
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| It always rains when i sing!!!! Whyyy???!!!!
LOl... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | I'm back from VA and here in Fl, sarcastic yay. I miss it, but i'm glad i'm back i guess. I really miss my mommy...lol. YEah, i'm bored though, i guess i should find something to do....lol sorry, i thought i had something to type about, but i guess i don't. My brother's going to VA for Thanksgiving, so i guess i'll be all by myself, just me and my Kitty. My dad will probably want to spend the time with his girfriend and her children, and i can't stand that little girl, so i'll just stay home and watch tv. I'll probably be working anyways. Yay! Getting a new job!! Man, i didn't think i've be anticipating the results for this election, i was supposed to vote, but i didn't know what the deadline was for registration in FL, so i can't now. That sucks, i'm not really into politics, but this time, i really want Kerry to win, i rather choose that douchebag over a turd sandwich...or is the other way around? WEll anyways, i hope Kerry wins. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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